Scribble

Do we really move on from the past or

Do we still have remnants of it, which we carry wherever we go?

While it does seem that my world has changed, or simply as put by many,
I have become an adult.
But I still have the remains of what I was once, and strangely enough,
I want to be what I actually was.

As Doetskovesky says, humans are irrational, Human, I am and all I desire is self agency that everything's going on perfectly, even though I know it is a lie.

Even if this is the moment of "perfect happiness" and today's me is probably the best version of mine, I need, after all this shit I've gone through called Adulting is just one moment.

A moment of happiness where I'm with the people I once loved.
A magic wand that would let me spend a little more time with all these friends, my family and everyone I love.
It is that one Moment of serenity I crave,
where I am with my people, happily enjoying our precious time.

While it does look like I did come a long way, only to long the very thing I went away from.
It is this one lucid dream, I badly want to recreate.
It's still that one moment of peace ,
Of laughs and love, with our people, that I crave.

#Subaran